One Month Later 3 February, 2010
Posted by Kai in Latest Tricks.Tags: long distance relationship, overexhaustion, seperation anxiety
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It has been a month since my last post.
Damn, that’s a long time since I blogged anything!
Some of you may have speculated why I haven’t done any blogging. Simply put it, I was too busy.
The man is still the same, but he’s (literally) stretched too thin.
I got lots on my plate, things that should not interfere with my studies, but experience and plain persistence have showed me that it is just too damn impossible.
I need a shot in the arm. I need that comforting feeling (and no, not talking of cigarettes.) I need a whole day, or God willing, at least half a day of total and utter devotion to my dearest.
This long-distance thingie?
Not helping the situation.
New Year, New Deal 1 January, 2010
Posted by Kai in Latest Tricks, Outside The Box.Tags: Bangsar, New Year 2010, Nasi Lemak Antarabangsa, Bangsar Village, debates
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It’s New Year.
It’s the start of a whole new book for the year.
I ‘celebrated’ the New Year by hanging out with three other guys and a girl at Nasi Lemak Antarabangsa, Bangsar (a.k.a KL’s Ghetto). Not the in place to be, yeah, but what the heck? It’s just another day for most of us anyway.
But last year was a tiring year for me. Slogging through my final (extended) semester to make sure I graduated, my convocation, the degree classes, debates, missing my other half… It put me through such a wringer that I don’t know how I can wake up, plaster a smile on my face and get on with my life.
But now, with 2010 starting its gears, I have to ink a new deal that (hopefully) can put my life back on track. For eight consecutive semesters the coveted Dean’s List has eluded me; for three consecutive tournaments I didn’t break to the Quarterfinals; and for the last six months I haven’t got a proper date with my other half.
So here’s the concord.I’ll rehab myself, put myself back on track, and show the world why I’m me. Why my chosen name signifies Victory. And that’s a deal I intent to keep until 2011.
Word of the day: Which carries more power, the name bestowed or the name chosen?
Two Weeks Into Hell and Back 18 December, 2009
Posted by Kai in Latest Tricks, Outside The Box.Tags: debating, GSDC 2009, VC Cup 2009
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That’s right folks, I went to GSDC and VC Cup. And still have my faculties intact.
It was enough to say that I’m glad all of it is over, so that I can concentrate on my studies… Oh yeah, MDO is on March…
Carp.
That aside, I have a list of people that I need to thank for the last two weeks of pure insanity.
1) Noel S.A Meldan – You drag me into hell. ‘Nuff said.
2) Aafina Zamil – Big Sis Finz, thanks for all the help and wisdom imparted onto us young debaters.
3) Omar Qayyum – Thanks for being my partner for GSDC. God knows what we could have done if we were paired up during VC Cup.
4) Jehan Soraya – Thanks for being my partner for VC Cup. I know we’re not that good as a pair, but we did arrive to raise hell and leave, right?
5) Rosal Aizuddin – Rosal, thanks for being such a good friend. Hanging out with you for the last two weeks has been the best!
Why five? Let’s just say, sequels are made for a reason.
‘Tis ain’t a holiday 28 November, 2009
Posted by Kai in Latest Tricks.Tags: Coruscant Nights, Dawn of War 2, Great Serdang Debate, His Dark Materials, Hitman, Kendo, Michael Reaves, Phillip Pullman, VC Cup
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For those caught in the muck called debate tourneys, you (most likely) would agree with my sentiment above.
Don’t say I didn’t warn ya! Click only if you want to read all my rambles
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I am not a dominator 8 November, 2009
Posted by Kai in Latest Tricks.Tags: debating, democracy, VC Cup
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I am guilty for two things; for thinking too much and and for trying to fulfill everyone’s wishes.
I don’t do the threatening part to well; it’s not in me (now) to yell and make threats at people.
This event might be a non-event if key persons cannot attend… ’nuff said, this is why I regret taking the job.
It is not my intention to incite a rebellion, to make people do things when they don’t want to.
I am not a dominator.
I respect the views of others, even if it clashes with the current opinion on things.
I am not a dominator.
It doesn’t make me meek, lazy or slacker. But I hate imposing my will upon others as others impose their will upon me.
I love debate. I love democracy.
But I hate the schism that is tearing this beloved part of mine apart.
I fear for the future.
Fates.Time.Death 2 November, 2009
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A wheel turns.
Life begins.
Life ends.
A wheel turns.
Syncophantium Maximus Gigas 30 October, 2009
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I am human.
I am also inhuman.
I am kind, respectful of others, a good friend, brother and a filial son.
I am also a selfish basterd, with a mind as dark as the Space.
I smile when I’m glad.
I also smile when I’m angry.
I think about the future and what it holds for me.
I also think on the millions of ways to horribly dismember people that I hate.
I am who my parents named me.
I am also called by the name that I chose for myself: the personification of rage.
We both exist in the same person.
One a mirror of the other.
And for once;
We agreed on something.
Woe betide, who smileth and stabbeth us, who talketh to us and talketh down on us, who playeth a game and knoweth not the rules…
We have a concord.
And you, Syncophatium Maximus Gigas, will be exterminated, as a species, and as a whole misbegotten stain you are.
Convocation! Parte Uno 25 October, 2009
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It has been a roller-coaster ride for almost six years, since I finished my SPMs…
Five of it spent slogging through all sorts of nonsense and things that most people in tertiary education never experienced…
But it all ends in one satisfying sentence the revered Tan Sri Vice Chancellor uttered in his baritone voice.
Thus ends Part One of my journey in the tertiary education system.
I can’t help but be emotional throughout the ceremony, as I relived the years of pain (Yes, pain. If you had been through what I’ve been through, you would be either folded or be as insane as me), time spent and wasted, the instances when I had wished that time-travel was very much possible, real and easy as pie to do… It all ends as the Tan Sri Vice Chancellor was ceremoniously escorted out of the Dewan Sri Budiman.
I had disappointed a lot of people, but it all was absolved as I walked across that stage, bowed and accepted that folder from Tan Sri Vice Chancellor. I had met so many people during this arduously long journey of mine, friends and enemies alike, and I’ve tasted life as it should be, both the sweet, and the bitter.
I thank all these people for reasons stated and not stated thereafter:
- Mum and Dad – for the years of patience and support. I was never the filial son, but I’m on the road to redemption. Though it may be a long road ahead of me, I will never tire nor surrender.
- My love - for the support you’ve given me since we met and committed ourselves together. Three years is a short time, but for me, it has been an eternity. I can’t wait to spent another eternity with you.
- Ilham Hafiz – the ONLY person outside the family I deem as a brother. Your words of wisdom has helped me since we first met.
- My numerous lecturers and teachers – I can’t list all of you here, it’ll take at least another page. I’m thankful for the support and the knowledge you have given me all these years. I know that I’m not a model student at times, but I pulled all stops when I have to.
- My brother and sister – both of you are precious to me, my only siblings. Even at time when I want to strangle the two of you and bury you two in the back yard. I’m the eldest, it is my duty to watch out for the both of you. And it is thine duty to keep me sane and insane when it counts.
- My OTHER love - you may be gone from this world, but I still remember the love and support you’ve given me. The weeks we shared as you lay wasting away was bittersweet, but it taught me to be the man I am now. I love you still, but I have another guardian of for my heart.
- The government – for giving me this opportunity to redeem myself after my first and disastrous foray into the tertiary level education. MARA had given me much needed help, and for all the detractors out there, it ain’t free and swinging good time for me. I had to repay the money spent, and I’m on the road to it as I type.
I’ve missed a few people that never got the opportunity to see me walk down that stage, but I still carry their memories in my heart. I may be uncaring and a callous man at times, but I do have a heart.
I care not that I did not finish my diplomas with a bang. I care not that the hall did not gave me an ovation as my name was displayed on the screen. I care for none of that.
My journey never ends here. This is only the first stop of the foreseen four. The next one is (hopefully) in another two years; the third in another two and the fourth in a foreseeable five. I’m not done studying, nor am I done in the pursuit of knowledge.
That pursuit, and this journey, shall only end as I exhaled my last breath and my heart beats its last.
Studying Organizational Behavior while listening to music and blogging and Facebook 22 October, 2009
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Sounds like a recipe for disaster… but who cares?!
I got Cobra Starship in my playlist, playing it over and over again… And I’m trying to understand why stress at workplace is bad.
Seriously??!
This is the crappiest subject I’ve ever taken. Ever. It’s hard to wrap the theories and make it malleable. I can’t write verbatim; I need to understand it first. Soooo… if I can’t understand it, there’s no point for me to write it down, right?
Yeah, if you are not taking the subject.
So what am I doing blogging? I should be studying for the test!
Word of the day: Keep things in perspective, and keep a perspective on things.
